@hhChoooo… who sneezed?!?!

My walk has frequently been marked with seasons.

Seasons which God impressed upon my heart. Following my past journals, I could see that in the last season, God spoke and dealt with obedience.

This season, I’ve been hearing again and again this one simple, single word…

Thirst.

I knew in my heart where God was pointing to. You’re not thirsting for me. You’re dehydrated and yet you are not drinking from Me.

Thirst.

I know in my competitive days, when we raced. One can feel totally hydrated after the race. But inside, the body is dehydrated… and the fluid I drink immediately after is not sufficient to hydrate the body. I need to keep drinking through the day, even when I don’t feel thirsty. Because my body needs it. I may go to the toilet a lot, but that does not mean my body has already got the fluid it needs.

Thirst.

I feel fine. I go to Church every week, I attend Cell group. I read my bible every morning. I serve actively in ministry. I do everything prescribed that a good Christian ought to do. But I’m not “hydrated” enough.

Thirst.

Bible says when we drink of Him, we will never be thirsty again. Drinking from Jesus, fills us with His Spirit, and there will be an overflow, a flood if you may, of the Holy Spirit from our lives.

Thirst?

Then Drink.

Its been such a hectic week right up till today. So… I’m rewarding myself with a good 2 hr “stone” break. Yes it sounds so pathetic, I only have 2 hours to stone before I start this crazy cycle again. Time is precious, and I miss having time to just do nothing.

I started out the week with dengue scare, I’m just glad the episode is over. My place is (so far) the only blocks of flats that hasn’t seen much dengue, the blocks surrounding mine are labelled hotspots! Naturally, with the onset of fever, aching muscles and joints, headaches, painful eyes, I thought I might be coming down with dengue fever… Doc said it was viral fever (but that we could not rule out dengue). So it was a relief, but I could not have imagined how the fever could wear me down so much! Totally weakened to the point that I panted as I walked around, and my knees were so numbed and weak, they buckled a few times while standing.I’m glad the strength is back…

The crunch is coming. Exams are just round the corner, the stress is setting in, the assignments are coming one after another. You know its stress when you dream equations, formulas and computing algorithms…. and guess what? I actually woke up with a solution to a computing problem!! Of course, it was also quite an unrestful sleep… (eyebags)

I miss hanging out… seemed so long since I’ve gone out on weekends with friends. Since school started, I’ve been hanging out with Tim the Tutorial, Alfred the Algorithm and Lester the lecture notes every saturday. Where’s the life? I’m so looking forward to December.

Now, I’ve got one assignment left… the toughest one. I’m praying I get through this alive…. Help Lord! (how I wish this cry was not for school work but for His work.. sigh .. )