@hhChoooo… who sneezed?!?!

“…that the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as himself.” 1 Samuel 18:1b

In the life of every man, there rarely is a David and Jonathan, whose hearts and soul are so closely knitted and bound, that a man can love another as he loves himself. Kindred spirits.

Truly its even rarer for men today because we find it hard to open our hearts to share with each other, and the tyranny of today’s society and fast paced lifestyle causes a great isolation of souls.

I once heard a godly man telling me that in his whole life, he has had less than 5 of such friends. Souls knitted together by the Lord. I believe that its so true because such friends rarely come by.

And so back in the end of 2004, when I met Yau Chung, I believe God caused our hearts to connect instantly. I remember the first time we had a real good chat was at a TCC at Holland Village and we found we could share so openly and honestly, our hearts burned with the similar passions. From then, we shared this journey.

This brother has a great heart for God, a great desire to love God and his people. One whom I hold in great esteem and love and honour. I do not think for once I’ve had such a close brother in Christ before. I mean, I do have people I know and I’m close to, but when scripture describes a bond as David and Jonathan, I believe this is it.

On Saturday, when YC had to fly to the States as part of his job attachment for the next 3 years, there was a deep sense of loss. I know I’m really going to miss this dear brother very much, and that I’m going to miss the times and things we’ve shared in the last 2 years. I know too that God will continue to knit our hearts in spite of the distance.

So, my brother, my prayers are for you over there and for your family back here. May God continue to bless our friendship and bind us deeper in His love. May it be so that we continue to press on in this race, though in this part of the journey, we may be apart, I believe that God will sustain us through His grace and love. Love you, bro.

Awoke this morning to find myself feeling all funny inside.

A feeling of vulnerability, and felt emotionally raw. Almost like anything could make you weep and cry.. Sounds funny, but it was through this that I felt much closer to God’s heart.

On Friday’s CG, as well as at the CG retreat and with other brothers, I shared that my prayer request was that I could feel again. (basically to be revived) To draw close to God and to feel and touch His heart again.

Its been a long time since I’ve felt “alive” inside.. almost as if my heart had hardened to such a state that nothing moved me. Sunday’s praise and worship no longer ushered me into His presence, sermon messages come across dry. Morning QT was mainly focused on self, and the Word of God.. stale and boring.

But last night after coming back from YC’s farewell party, I just started praying and praising God in song. God’s presence descended and as I came before Him, tears rolled down and I felt such wretchedness before our God. I believe God has heard these brothers’ prayers (Thanks so much!!) and answered them. I called to God for forgiveness. And really felt lifted and cleansed. (one really does not know how much burdens we carry until its lifted off)

Lost in His presence…

Today, during Vision Sunday, as Pastor Kai shared about two major upcoming events.. our Church’s prayer walk and the Global Day of Prayer. What really spoke to me during his sharing was that unless we come to a point where we truly come before God in repentance(or in Ps Ann’s message today.. Remorse without repentance).. in true repentance.. revival will tarry… it will not happen. God IS calling individuals to Himself. And my prayer is that all brothers and sisters will arise to this call to prayer and repentance.. I’m truly looking forward to this saturday. My prayer is we will catch a glimpse of revival..