Awoke this morning to find myself feeling all funny inside.

A feeling of vulnerability, and felt emotionally raw. Almost like anything could make you weep and cry.. Sounds funny, but it was through this that I felt much closer to God’s heart.

On Friday’s CG, as well as at the CG retreat and with other brothers, I shared that my prayer request was that I could feel again. (basically to be revived) To draw close to God and to feel and touch His heart again.

Its been a long time since I’ve felt “alive” inside.. almost as if my heart had hardened to such a state that nothing moved me. Sunday’s praise and worship no longer ushered me into His presence, sermon messages come across dry. Morning QT was mainly focused on self, and the Word of God.. stale and boring.

But last night after coming back from YC’s farewell party, I just started praying and praising God in song. God’s presence descended and as I came before Him, tears rolled down and I felt such wretchedness before our God. I believe God has heard these brothers’ prayers (Thanks so much!!) and answered them. I called to God for forgiveness. And really felt lifted and cleansed. (one really does not know how much burdens we carry until its lifted off)

Lost in His presence…

Today, during Vision Sunday, as Pastor Kai shared about two major upcoming events.. our Church’s prayer walk and the Global Day of Prayer. What really spoke to me during his sharing was that unless we come to a point where we truly come before God in repentance(or in Ps Ann’s message today.. Remorse without repentance).. in true repentance.. revival will tarry… it will not happen. God IS calling individuals to Himself. And my prayer is that all brothers and sisters will arise to this call to prayer and repentance.. I’m truly looking forward to this saturday. My prayer is we will catch a glimpse of revival..